I hate waiting.
Well, that’s not exactly true. Sometimes, I don’t mind waiting; i.e. in the grocery store when I’m not in a hurry or in traffic when there is a good song on the radio. However, my patience wears thin in a record amount of time when I have to wait in less than ideal conditions.
When I have to wait for someone to hurry up when I think that I’ll be late or when I have a headache and I’m just done. That’s when I really hate waiting. When I feel like I’ve been waiting for too long already. When I pray and ask God for help or to resolve a situation and He seems to take forever in His reply. When all I can about is that I’ve been waiting; that’s when things get really sticky. I don’t understand why God couldn’t just make something happen already! It always seems to me that there are a million reasons why God should answer now. But, that is not how God works. He has His own timing and His own agenda. He knows what is best for me and how long I should wait.
I think that the moments in life where we get stuck waiting are some of the most missed opportunities for growth and ,dare I say it, enjoyment. It’s in those moments of hardship and trial, that God can show us that He is all we need. He could help us learn how to live our lives in our less than ideal situation. He could bring us to a place in our lives where we really appreciate the value of life. Often, we don’t even want to see that as an option. We stubbornly persist in our complaining and therefore spoil the happiness and miss out on the peace that God wants to give us. If you run into a trial in life and you can’t ever see past it, you will miss out on all the life that happens while you focus on only one thing: your trial. Similarly, If you are always waiting for the next big thing and saying “I’ll really be living when I … graduate high school, graduate college, get a real job, buy a house, get married, have kids, pay of my loans…” and the list goes on, you’ll never enjoy the life that is right before you and you will die having never really lived.
I deal with waiting everyday. I know how hard it is to feel like you will never move on from a hard spot in life. I know how it’s so easy to say “I’ll be able to live my life when this is over”, but the reality is that “this” may never be over or it could take years. I’ve come to the conclusion that, although it is extremely difficult at times, the best option is to try to live your life despite your trials and enjoy the good things. God will help you to live in your trial and maybe, someday He will show you why He allowed it in your life. So, my goal is to enjoy the good in each an every moment and ask God to help me to see past the difficult and to help me to live in my trial and not sit around waiting for life to begin!